If I was as bad as you say I am, I wouldn't comb my hair in front of you, I wouldn't let you stay here, I wouldn't feed you, I wouldn't take baths for you, I wouldn't disappear for you and make money for you, I wouldn't smile or die or whatever it is you all want from me, if I was this monster everyone says I am, I wouldn't create everything, a hallucinating clearness and music talking to myself, our videos and a life-like likeness and I wouldn't have this estate, I wouldn't have this schedule and packages of items, I wouldn't be the reason why I have pictures and secrets and gold that is everything to you and meaningless to me.