I prefer to be alone and they are everybody, I despise cowardice and disloyalty, people can break a vow to Heaven, but you better not ever break a vow to me, it doesn't matter how I pass a day as joyless and somber as the grave, people can fall in love with me and still hate me, thinking too much is my disease, there is no cure, see God, see the clouds and angry rain, even if you don't, know that He is there, know that it is there, God knows what lives in place of me, He knows, that's enough for me, that's all I need to go another day in this isolated, idyllic and luxury prison, white marble fireplace, I've punished myself for my entire life, my entire life, I punish, I deserve it, please resurrect me as a stalwart man, a brawler, a beast, I want to break skulls when I punch them, pull trees straight from the ground and yawp.