Thank you for loving someone who is unloved and won't allow it. We are so different but I love you, anyone ever tries to hurt you again, I'll kill them if I can. Every day I hope for the best for you, it's not about the soap you get me, you are an angel to me and I am grateful. No one else really loves me and I know this. I know. I gave you the cross, that was my last gift, I have nothing else and I never will. It makes me happy that you wear it as I did. Everything is beautiful, I pretend, I'm sorry it's like this with me. I am I. Thank you. I hope the path opens for you, all that you want, I ask God, I ask to give you beauty in life and love, you deserve it more than so many others, so many people, you deserve it. I don't, I am cruel and unhappy and I'll never change, I can't. I do not deserve grace, I want it for you, me for you. That's what I ask God. Me for you. Grace. Please. Just grace. Me for you.