My entire life has been an unstable, angry, rage-fueled turbulent warfare against the malice of others. There were moments where I was kind, gentle and caring. Now I am a monster because of how I have been treated. None of you know how I feel inside, you do not feel what I feel. I'm blamed for emotions I cannot control and thoughts and words from someone with severe psychological problems, this is me and people hate me for it, they hate me for things I have no control over because I have tried. It's not my fault my brain lies to me, but it does, and I forgive all of you for hating me, for wishing ill on me and for me being a burden to some. I know that I am a burden. There is no wilderness like a life without anyone, not even yourself because you don't always recognize that person. You don't know what it's like, none of you do, but I forgive you.